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November 04, 2008

Dear Diary - Day Zero (0)



Several of us had escaped the world when several others blew it up. At that final moment we saw pieces of ourselves launched into the portion of space that used to be the earth. We had no plans for life. Life did not involve planning anymore. All the plans had apparently been leading to our imminent self-destruction. A powerful realization dawned in this moment of absence. The paucity of everything that used to be taken for granted dissolved into a single fact, shattering into a pin point. We certainly did a thorough job of annihilation.
After all, it was our speciality.

In the absence of the earth the moon shifted its orbits, and the solar system seemed dreadfully empty as I drifted into deeper space. I had a few more hours of life support before I too would become yet another system, breaking down into infinite continuum.

We never found out if there was life on other planets. For the first time, I felt lonely without being able to do nothing about it. But then emotions and thoughts are also systems that eventually break down. So...my loneliness transformed into freedom.
Yes. A brief sort of freedom, but the most absolute kind nonetheless.
It was precious...

We had all been living like the lab animal - born into a well controlled environment, hooked to pipelines of food, water, and energy. We left our wild roots for the comfort of concrete walls with beautiful paintings of mystery safely hanging at a distance. We slept in peace with imaginary fears and silly ambitions of 'making' it in life. Now it was all amusing to think we knew.
But we hardly had a clue.

Retrospectively it makes sense that our end at our own hands was inevitable. After all, once we traded cold comfort for change, it was all about guarding it with our lives, the lives of our families, and those we loved. The ones we despised, the ones we hated, were on the other side of some colluded boundary.
Caricatured lines separated us from ourselves, like the clothes that concealed the natural nakedness we had become so terribly ashamed of.

War is certainly the organizing principle of life!

I died on the doomsday, but my entire life did not pass before my eyes.

Instead...........

Colors enhanced in the dark, Creatures in the mind lying still, Bright flashes hurt the eyes, if you want to die...you will! No voices from deep within Can answer you tonight. This is the last hour, before the final fight! You'll lose your peace of mind, let go your values behind, This is the last hour, before the final fight! Your breath is counting hours, to stop for a while. In an instant of eternity, you close your eyes with a smile! There will be flashes from the past, and premonitions of the future. Your present is a dead grave, and your life has gone obscure! You see the tunnel vision, And your body levitates in the wind. You imagine the Heavens- Taking your martyred soul within! You have hated and you have loved, You have sinned every sin. You have called the almighty at times, And worshipped the Devil within! Now you lie in the grave, of pious purity- and you wonder what you've done, to die among these loved ones!




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